first ultrasound

2009 November 5
by B

The first ultrasound went great and everything good.  We go back on November 16th for the second ultrasound when I’ll be around 9-10 weeks.  So far so good.  I have been more relaxed lately about it though yesterday became increasingly worried since I was feeling better.  Today the nausea is a little bit back and the fetal doppler should be here tomorrow.  I know it is early, but I found my son’s heartbeat at 9 weeks with him.  Hoping for the same for that assurance.

Other than that just laying low.  It’s just a different excitement this time I suppose…  I know what I’m in for as far as having two that close in age, etc… and it is likely our last child which in itself is bittersweet.  I do look forward to a whole new chapter in life to move on to.  As I said, this blog is just to chronicle my life and my thoughts – what I was into, etc…  so that when I’m in a nursing home I can re-read it.  Remember.  I tend to forget so much already.

No posts about pregnancy or ultrasounds or the like meaning to offend anyone still in the earlier stages of the journey — especially long-term.  I have no idea about how that would feel and how I would be if still there.  Glad I’m not; wish no one else was.  It should be easier.

the george thomas trial

2009 November 5

Hamilton Co. jury sought for Knox Co. double murder trial
Yvette Martinez Updated: 8/30/2009 6:58:51 PM Posted: 8/30/2009 2:40:26 PM

Judge Richard Baumgartner is heading to Chattanooga to find another jury for an upcoming high profile double murder case that has captivated Knox County.

George Thomas is set to go to trial on October 28th. He is accused of torturing and killing Channon Christian and Chris Newsom in January 2007.

Last Wednesday, a Nashville jury convicted Thomas’ best friend Letalvis Cobbins to life in prison without the possibility of parole for killing Christian.

Both Thomas and Cobbins were arrested at a house in Lebanon, Kentucky on January 11, 2007, just two days after Christian’s body was found in a trash can in Knoxville.

Investigators also took Cobbins’ girlfriend Vanessa Coleman in for questioning, but she wasn’t charged until the end of January 2007.

Coleman and Cobbins both surrendered at the house, but officers had to go inside to force Thomas to turn himself in to law enforcement.

On Monday morning, Judge Baumgartner will ask about 200 Hamilton County residents to fill out a lengthy questionnaire. They will be polled about their views on the death penalty and if they have been exposed to publicity about the double murders.

Thomas’ attorneys Thomas Dillard and Stephen Johnson, along with Assistant District Attorneys Leland Price and Takisha Fitzgerald will also make the trip to Chattanooga on Monday.

Dillard says they will use the same questionnaire used to poll nearly 170 Nashville jurors in preparation for Cobbins’ trial.

Cobbins told police that he overheard his older brother and co-defendant Lemaricus Davidson tell Thomas that he had to prove himself. Cobbins said the two left the house for hours the night that Newsom was shot, burned and left by the railroad tracks near Cherry Street.

Coleman told investigators that Thomas admitted to shooting and killing Newsom.

After the judge gets back from Chattanooga, he will start searching for a fair and impartial jury for Lemaricus Davidson’s trial.

On Tuesday, the judge will give nearly 1,000 potential Knox County jurors questionnaires to see if they have already formed an opinion abou the high-profile case.

Davidson has asked for a Knox County jury for a Knox County trial. Davidson is expected to go to trial on September 21st. However, Judge Baumgartner told attorneys he believes it could take at least 2 weeks to find a jury. He is unsure what he will do, if he still can’t find a panel after 2 weeks of searching.

Jury for Thomas trial being selected in Hamilton Co.

Posted: Aug 31, 2009 6:44 AM
Updated: Aug 31, 2009 10:40 AM

By HANA KIM
6 News Reporter

CHATTANOOGA (WATE) — The jury for George Thomas, the third defendant to stand trial in the Christian-Newsom murders, is being selected in Hamilton County. The process began Monday.

The county seat is Chattanooga and that’s where Knox County court officials summoned 410 potential jurors to the courthouse Monday morning to fill out questionnaires.

One woman was dismissed after telling the court she has three jobs and an unemployed husband who expects home cooked meals.

Thomas chose not to come to court like his friend Letalvis Cobbins did when the jury for his trial was selected in Nashville.

One question on the jury questionnaire asks whether the person knows the race of the defendants. All four are black. The two victims were white.

Other questions ask if the potential jurors have seen reports about the case on TV or if they’ve ever blogged or commented about it online.

In April, Judge Richard Baumgartner ruled to allow unrestricted media coverage in the trials. All four defendants had asked the court to order media outlets to prohibit people from posting comments about stories related to the case.

Jury selection for Thomas’ trial will continue on October 28, 29 and possibly on the 30th.

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The trial starts on December 1st.  I really cannot wait!  More justice will be served.  I wonder how Davidson is doing on death row?

the last post about NJ

2009 November 5
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by B

I had to do an overhaul on some of the posts on this blog in reference to my whack job of a brother.  This will be the last time I even mention him… I hope!  Well, at least publicly.  I have the ability to set posts private, and will do that.  You see, here’s the story.  Two days ago I am working and minding my own business with thoughts of NJ (nutjob = brother) never ever on my mind anymore.  You see, in January 2009, I really let it go.

Suddenly, I get a random comment to a post made in January 2009 about birth order, etc… on my public family blog which I will not list here since the point of this one is to speak my mind!  The comment said something to the effect of being dedicated to the hero child who is still performing on the internet.  I was like, “Whaaaa?”  Sure enough do an arin whois and it’s NJ.  I posted a reply to the NJ that ONLY had the IP of the originator and the company name.  Yeah, you are busted.  Yeah you signed it Michael, the same name by the way that you used when trying to stalk your ex-wife on myspace years ago and deleted your profile suddenly when she started figuring it out.  Yep.  You are definitely a NJ.  He realizes he’s busted at that point and responds from my incarcerated brother – angerandvengeance@gmail.com and called me a piece of sh*t.  Whatever.  I deleted it

He then proceeds to get on Facebook and harrass my mom while she is here with my dad about my blog post saying it was all about him.  It really wasn’t.  I didn’t even ASSIGN him a profile but at this point I’d say yeah… you are the scapegoat and a miserable human being.  He tells her that he will add her to the list of those he is not speaking to.  (Say it isn’t so!!!  I now realize being on his list has been a BLESSING that I have not recognized properly).  AND that he isn’t coming for the holidays!  WOO WOO!   Another peaceful Thanksgiving and Christmas!  YES!

Here’s the lie.  He says that a consultant there in NC came in with the last name the same as my hubby.  He says to my parents that he told the guy, “Oh, my sister is married to a ________ do you know any in (state)?”  The guy didn’t.  Then later he just HAPPENED to come back and said he googled my last name and the blog came right up.  Funny.  You try to do that and it doesn’t.   He said that it would ruin his reputation though the post had no mention that I even had a NJ of a brother.  Hilarious.  Even more hilarious is that I can see it was only him on the website by unique users in Charlotte, NC.  Idiot.

Things blow up here.  Settle down.  Then yesterday it starts back up again b/c NJ sent our dad an email with all kinds of cursing in it about my blog in general and that the company my dad works for flagged the email and he’s being investigated.  So he called his son, NJ, who should know being the big time management guy he is too about company email and the use of vulgar language… then says he is going to sue me.  Really, NJ.  There is NOTHING to sue over.

My dad tells him that he is a grown man and that I am a grown woman and that if he has anything to say he should just call me.  Amen Dad.  NJ doesn’t have the internal fortitude to even try to call me though I wouldn’t answer the phone anyway.

This all happened for a reason.  I’m always asking and found 30 blog posts over the life of this blog about how crazy NJ is.  All the hurt he has caused in our family.

Bottom line:

1.  Thank you for ignoring me the past two years.  Thank you.  Seriously.  You physically attacking me years ago really was the end of me caring about you like I wish I could.  Thanks for nailing the nails in the coffin on our relationship.  I have asked God to let us reconcile, but God can’t make you do anything.  You are obviously a NJ and crazy.

2.  Mom and Dad are seeing your ways through this last incident.  Dad read my blog and found nothing about you NJ.

3.  I needed this closure.

Done.  Done.  Done.

Justice is served for the rape and torture killings of Christian Newsom

2009 October 30

The Death Penalty:

I just want to say that I’m very happy with the verdict, regardless if you are for or against the death penalty, justice was served.  As a jury member, it was obvious to me the only choice they had was the worst possible sentence for a crime like this.  Death.

I’m happy for the family of Channon and Christopher.  I’m happy that justice was served.  Too bad it takes 10-20 years to execute someone.

I do hope Lemaricus finds peace with his maker as the judge said to him today.

closing arguments…

2009 October 27
by B

I cannot believe Mr. Eldridge, the attorney for Lemaricus Davidson, starts his closing argument talking about the Boston Tea Party.  Are you kidding me?  I’m telling you I’m so disappointed in him.  He’s pointing out that there was drug use by the victims, which by the way was not proven to be a link between the victims and the defendent.  He’s saying that this was brought out by them not to make the victims look bad?  Seriously?  What a slime ball! 

  • The phone call made by Ms. Christian showing that they don’t know for sure if she was directed by the defendent or not.
  • Voicemail access by Ms. Christian’s phone
  • If Newsom was in the cargo area
  • No evidence of Mr. Davidson’s actions except phone calls.
  • Calling the story the prosecution gave – made up?  UNREAL
  • …and he just keeps on attacking the victims

What we know is that Mr. Davidson’s past behavior is indicative of his future behavior, but yet we can’t discuss it in court.  YET, we can discuss probabilities of what Christian and Newsom’s personal life prior to the murders were.  How great is our law system?

#cntrial – the twitter lingo, you know

2009 October 26

Anyway here I am sitting here at the edge of my seat waiting on this last break to end as the CLOSING ARGUMENTS are about to start.  The defense had a really shaky defense.  Really nothing to hang their hat on but just basically trying to paint a picture of perhaps some doubt that maybe Christian and Newsom were in the Cherry Street area to buy drugs.  They are trying to get the jury to maybe believe that they were in the area, and it was a drug deal gone bad.  Except for the fact that others can account for their whereabouts in the time in question and that Christian had no drug in her system.  Newsom had some marijuana and amphetamines, but very low levels that would indicate a casual user.  I have no qualms against casual users and believe this information in this trial is irrelevant.  The defense team of Eldridge and Trant in Knoxville, TN has done their best to try to put the victims on trial.

All this to say is that DNA evidence in her vagina, anus, and clothes is enough.  Surely the jury will give him the death penalty as he deserves.  Though I did read a death penalty prisoner costs more per day than a life without parole prisoner… but the hope is that he’d be executed within 10 years.  That’s the hope.

Also some other mistakes today would be when the defense’s TBA expert was on the stand talking about what half-life was.  She defined it wrong.  She also pointed out that oxycontin’s half life would be 5 hours.  That’s not true for oxycontin since it’s in a sustained release format.  Again, where’s the expert testimony of a medical professional?

I have watched so many you tube videos of this trial and even went back to Letalvis Cobbins’ trial, though he just now was transferred to his place for life — a prison in Whiteville, TN.  Hope you enjoy your diggs Letalvis!  Hope that someone gives you a taste of what you did to Christian while you are enjoying your stay!

I have enjoyed the trial and learning more about law though I have been disgusted with the crime beyond normal.  I’ve been disgusted that I haven’t seen any of this on the national news.  I’m not for sure it was a racially motivated crime since a couple of the perpetrators actually have white girlfriends.  Who knows?

Sending up prayers that very soon we will hear the verdict as the jury deliberates…  death by lethal injection.

Come on jury.  We need to get THIS ONE RIGHT.

Christian-Newsom trial

2009 October 24

I almost spit out my coffee this morning as the state continues its case against the monster Lemaricus Davidson. Yesterday during the medical examiner’s testimony and graphic pictures showing Channon Christian and Christopher Newsom’s injuries, an assistant to the DA fainted. I didn’t even think a lot of it as I have personally fainted while watching an open heart surgery once. Sometimes fainting just happens as a reaction to things not seen before.

The scum bag defense attorneys David M. Eldridge and Trant asked for a mistrial.

ARE YOU KIDDING ME?????????

I really believe that defense attorneys can be the lowest of the low… almost selling their soul to the devil. Albeit some defendants can be innocently charged, in this case… come on!

Let’s start with the beginning of this case in January 2007. Channon Christian was apparently sitting in her 4-runner as her boyfriend of a few months, Christopher Newsom, was kissing her goodnight late in the apartment parking lot of a friend where they had just watched a movie or something else fun. Three black men carjack them, abduct, rape, and torture the both of them. Christopher was raped, bound and made to walk blindfolded with a sock in his mouth and a shirt over his head barefoot to some railroad tracks where he was shot several times and then burned. His body was found the next day.

Channon suffered far worse as she was tortured, raped, and beaten. You can google her and her boyfriend’s name to get the details because they are just too gruesome for me to retype.

Lemaricus Davidson is up on trial and the prosecution just rested. The defense is up in the next few moments. I know their tactic is going to paint these victims as kids looking for drugs, but everything else in the case points to what REALLY happened.

And what REALLY needs to happen here is for Davidson to get the death penalty.

It’s funny how the defense really tries to clean this thug up from this:

To this:

There are trying their darndest to make him look like a sweet college boy.  Not only that, no one can bring up the fact that he just got out of prison for carjacking and robbery of a woman in Jackson, TN a few years ago.  We can’t mention that he is in a gang (probably the crips).  It’s unreal how the justice system has more rights for the defendants than the victims!

the case in knoxville

2009 October 20

I thought I’d pause for a moment and just express some thoughts I have on my mind besides just waiting on the first u/s next Monday.  There is a case out in Tennessee, Knoxville to be exact, where Lemaricus Davidson is standing trial for the abduction, rape, and murders of Channon Christian and Christopher Newsom.  I’m appalled this didn’t make national headlines.  I’m sorry to offend anyone, but if this couple had been black and the perpetrators (there were 4-5 maybe more) white, it would have been all over the headlines… case in point, IMUS.  Give me a break!

Do we have reverse discrimination now?  I think so.  We play down race when it’s black on white.  Is this a hate crime?  Sure.  But my feelings are that all crimes are hate.  REGARDLESS of race.

I’m hoping Mr. Davidson gets what is coming to him.  He is up for the death penalty.

{second beta}

2009 October 7

Insert a huge sigh of relief right here.  I mean for the moment I am ok and things are progressing as they should.  I have a bit long 19 day wait, but I find with my son and the full-time job that 19 days can fly by as one at times.  Of course, with this hanging over my head and knowing the past of 3 first time ultrasounds with 2 being bad, it still lingers in the back of my head.  Just hopeful it’s not a blighted ovum, a missed miscarriage, or anything else that is not normal.

My first beta two days ago was 37.  Super early eh?  In fact in the past I’ve collected three separate pregnancy betas and they are all drawn later.  This is a first, and I will admit that I did not like the double digit at all though normal.  Just feels LOW. 

Back in time:

Twin pg — 16 dpo (578) and 22 dpo (4334) – ended in m/c at 8 wks though both had stopped growing around 6 wks.

Son pg – 15 dpo (232) and 18 dpo (926)

Last pg – no betas drawn. 

This one – 11 dpo (37) and 13 dpo (107)

Right on track.  Temps still high.  I feel like crap with a headache.  Good signs.  I will say you won’t hear me complain too much at all about symptoms.  I crave them.  Seriously.  I don’t get those who do complain but it’s just not in my nature I suppose…  I REALLY really want this.  Bring on all of it.

As it stands this could be the last pregnancy I ever have.  Hubby and I have agreed on two though I would love three, he just feels he’s too old.  He’s only in his early forties, but still. 

Just wanted to share the good news for today.

{in between}

2009 October 6
by B

I have thought and thought about this post, just as the previous. I am in a strange place. Stranger in a strange land I should say. I’ve long ago lost most of my readers, but I originally started this blog for myself. What I’ve found in the place I am today is that I go back and try to read symptoms and feelings from the previous three pregnancies. I find that I am silent most of the time though my brain has some memory of major fret and worry. I wish I had recorded how I felt.

So in short. I had a D&C on September 4th. I’ve been quite OK about it. I have this timeline in my head and somehow trying to conceive for two teeny cycles and a D&C is nothing in the scope of the losses and journeys of others. I remember making a comment at the last u/s where I saw nothing but this strange collapsed sac, “There’s a lot worse that comes through this room.” I was thinking about stillbirth, trisomy, etc…

“But you shouldn’t minimize your own pain. You have a right to feel some sadness and not overshadow it with others’ experiences. This is YOUR life.” She’s a sweet ultrasound tech that I’ll probably never see again. She was the same one that did our gender scan for our son. The same one with the radio playing Christian music that I personally found comforting. The same music that asks Mary if she knew that her baby boy…” and the irony in that I knew it was a boy.

I digress as usual.

I ovulated on CD 23/24.  It fell on our anniversary.

… I’m cautiously expecting.  Again.  Yeah, I know we should have waited one cycle.  I can see now why as I’m cramping and was spotting yesterday thus why I haven’t put the positive in the chart.

Anyway, if you could say a prayer…  mostly that I have peace with the outcome.  Yeah I’d love a good outcome but more importantly I want to stay in the frame of mind I’ve been in since September 4th.  Regardless.